so i`ve been thinking about leaving a semester early from japan for quite some while now.
but i just can`t make up my mind.

pros of staying:
- things might get better
- have more experiences (ie. school festival)
- my new host families might be fun
- i`ll go more places, probably
- i`ll have more time to learn the language better
- i`ll get to go home with all the other exchangers
- won`t have to pay a fee to go home
- i`ll get the whole I DID IT experience

cons of staying:
- things might not get better
- i would have to do my hs courses by correspondence or summer school
- i wouldn`t have a lot of time with the jap. girl my mom is hosting
- things will probably stay unhappy and unfulfilled with me
- i will probably run out of money
- i will most likely still hate school and piee, which majorly affects my outloook on life
- changing host families again, possibly up to 3 more times

pros of leaving:
- start school in sept. in canada to make up hs courses
- more time to earn money for uni/future travel
- happiness
- more time with jap. girl mom is hosting
- can learn japanese from jap. girl
- visit friends at uni etc. and see how life is
- i made it half way!
- can leave japan on a good note
- possible to do some alone travel to places i couldn`t go before

cons of leaving:
- japanese level might not be as good as it could be
- won`t go home with other exchanger friends...no stories or reminiscing
- flight home alone, but possibly direct??
- 300$ fee or so to leave early
- loose 1/2 of the 9,000$ my mom paid for me to go here
- i am a failure for not making 10 months


DEAR LJ WHAT THE HELL DO I DO WITH MYSELF!?!?!!!

I am back from Europe. It was awesome aside from
a) It was cold
b) We didn't go inside many of the neat buildings we saw

Sunday I depart for LA and the next day I depart for Japan for the next 10 months.
I won't be writing here, so feel free to read my exchange blog, http://hellonippon.wordpress.com/

I'm in a bit of a bad mood as I'm STILL BLOODY SICK!!!
I'm really angry about this because on Monday I was feeling 10 times better and really good and now I'm nearly back where I started. The only thing that's gone is the sore throat, but now I've acquired a cough. I was at Alisha's this morning (actually, I've been there since Tuesday evening) pretty much dieing in the bedroom of coughing until finally she got me some water. That helped a bit.
I'm also annoyed because my dothost website with my Japan blog has disappeared into the netherworlds of the internet AGAIN!! Grr. So I've decided to screw my own website and just find a reliable blog provider instead. Not sure what provider I'll use yet, but I'm looking at wordpress. Ho hum.

Also, I'd like to mention that I AM FOREVER DONE WITH CANADIAN HIGH SCHOOL!!!
Okay, well not really, because I'll need to take 2 courses in 2009, but I'll do those by correspondence.
THE NEXT TIME I GO TO SCHOOL WILL BE IN JAPAN!

Exactly 2 months today until Costa Rica!


(And 5 months, 6 days until Japan!)


Also, I almost endured a major catastrophe when my blog for my exchange suddenly POOFED for about a week. Luckily it seems to have re-appeared. Thank god. I think I'm going to back up all my files now.

March 20th.....

I had this dream last night that I was driving and none of the other people on the road were using signals. So I got really annoyed and was like, "Fine! I won't signal either!"
XDDD

Just got back from walking to the post office.
I saw this guy from my APS class on the way o___o
That was odd. I never knew he lived in town.
He always wears this big, poofy coat and he's French XD
Anyway.

I was stupid and went to get my stamp (for my ASSE preliminary application! YAY!) before checking the mail, so when I got the mail there was a notice that I had a package, so then I had to go BACK inside the post office and the lady just laughed at me when I came in again for the second time XD

So, yes, my preliminary application is finally sent! Now it's official, Japan is where I'm going.
I was having some major doubts about whether I wanted to go there or not. It would've been so easy to just pick "Holland" or "Germany" or "France". But I'm taking a big step in being independent, and stepping outside of my comfort zone. Europe is like home to me, I am comfortable there, I love it and I know it, more or less. Conversely, I know next to nothing about Japan and I am certainly not comfortable with it. I don't even know how to use chopsticks XD
So I'm proud of myself for being daring :)

Also, that 50bookchallenge thinger seems interesting, but I think its kind of dumb to join the community - heck, I can read books without posting in some community. So, I'm doing it on my own.

Currently reading: Charmed Life by Dianna Wynne Jones (I love you forever piamon!)
Angels & Demons by Dan Brown (Haha, I've been reading this for like 3 months XD Can't seem to finish it)

Finished: Fingersmith by Sarah Waters (OMG THERE'S A BBC MINISERIES o_______o I'm not sure if I'm afraid or interested. Richard looks hot, though not how I imagined him...He looks to nice and he doesn't have enough stubble...)

Up Next: Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte
A Long Way Down by Nick Hornby
The Book of Small by Emily Carr

Aaand that's it for now!